Where is My Rainbow

Have you ever woke up in the morning feeling so down that you feel like staying in bed till the afternoon? I am feeling it now. But yeah, too bad I still have to force myself to work. Urgh.

I woke up at 2:30 a.m. this morning and had trouble going back to sleep. I've been thinking about alot of things, from career, to relationship, to fullfillment of life & above all - what truly makes me happy.

In terms of career, if I was given a choice, I would want to start my own business -a francaise of my own or maybe a boutique or spa, so that I don't have to live paycheck to paycheck like I am now. Rather frustrating at times, but yeah, i don't have much choice at this moment.

Relationship wise, the qualities I look for in a partner - same wavelength, fun, responsible, attractive, (for me at least!) caring, jovial, loving and.... this list could get really longgg

You know how we humans are, nothing is ever enough.

Anyway, then comes the issues that comes along with it - the baggage, family issues, differences in priorities and the sacrifices you have to make throughout the relationship. As we practice the eastern culture and what is also taught in my religion, somehow or rather, it's always in the favor of men.

So, when is a sacrifice too much?

Is is really worth it in the name of love?

Or would it just be easier to be with someone convenient?

Someone you know is not as great, but you know would be less of a hassle to go about being with. Less issues so less headaches.

Someone who would probably be a better bet in the long run?

Mind boggling. For me, at least.